flatteries: (i just started to deserve it)
a man for flowers ✿ ( INIGO ) ([personal profile] flatteries) wrote in [personal profile] blitzcheer 2021-01-24 09:14 am (UTC)

[ It hurts.

More than he expected it to. Tidus may as well have shoved a knife right between his ribs, and it would have had just about the same impact. Because while it's not that he doesn't get it, that he doesn't understand there's good intentions behind it, that Tidus is thinking of him, not wanting to make him worry--

It still doesn't feel fair. There's things I'm not ready to talk about. Didn't Inigo dump enough painful details about himself onto Tidus by now? Things he has told almost no one on the train, almost no one even back home. Did he think it wasn't that hard for Inigo to talk about those? And it'll just worry you more. And so what if it does? Is he a little child that needs to be kept away from the truth? Is he still that little boy hiding behind his mother's skirts?

The second part of it all lands a much softer blow than it usually would have, after that. It just feels understandable. The desperation in the face of seeing someone who means so much to you walk right off the platform. Inigo gets it. Can't blame Tidus for doing something dumb, something reckless, even if he doesn't know the whole story of it.

The whole story. The gap that lies between him and Tidus suddenly feeling like an entire abyss.

Inigo looks down while thinking, only raising his face when he's absolutely sure he has already forced back down the tears before they could spill from his eyes. ]


Okay. [ His voice is quiet and a little raw. His throat feels so dry all of a sudden. ] I understand. I'm sorry, it.. it must've been hard.

[ He can't say more though. If he wastes anymore words on it, he may lose himself in the negative thought spiral. Before his mind twists Tidus's thoughtfulness in thoughts of see, why would he ever want to share everything with you--

Inigo puts his hand on his SCA. ]


I'm going to take it off now.

[ This is cowardice. He's just running away.

He knows. ]

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