( Jingyi does not look at Inigo, because no, bro, come on, even if he's not subtle, he has not once namedropped anyone else's business. He didn't even name Dennis to Wen Sizhui, okay? He keeps shit on lockdown.
But he's now trying to parse a few things.
One, Tidus having an issue with this coming from both of them.
Two, that issue has him worried over what Jingyi meant about him not being able to handle dating.
Three, if that's coming up right now is this perhaps not proposing but propositioning... for dating???
Four, he knows??? On some level??? He's dating Inigo??? Physically???
His head's filled with arrows pointing in disparate directions, and he's not less pale, but he does answer, because of course he does. )
I thought you didn't want my opinions. ( He doesn't make that biting, he's too pale to manage it, just outright confused. Which, well, Tidus had said something to that effect. But he's being asked, so he says: ) It was talking with you. I felt like you weren't in a place to allow that you can love people here and still love Yuna, too. That you can work on getting back to her and still, you know, be here with the people here fully. Heart and body, mind and soul, um.
( Oh Heavens he's rambling, and his tail's gone so still it's hit the floor with a dull thud. WHEN DID GIFTING TIME BECOME A LOVE CONNECTION other than the fact Tidus lives on nothing but borrowed time, and he does get that. He can't pretend he's in that situation. He can't pretend he's in Inigo's situation. There's nothing unique or different or complicated about his personal situation, outside of the worries anyone not seeing him back home would have, and the distress he's causing his best friend, and by proxy, his best friend's fathers, and his sect leader.
He doesn't have a lover he's worrying; he doesn't have siblings he's worrying; he doesn't have parents he's worrying. Lan Jingyi, here or gone, is missed, but not irreplaceable. Not a guardian, not saving an ending world, not helping end the world he grew up in, just doing work keeping normal people from being swallowed alive by nightmares.
And he does have inherent self worth. He's alive, he's capable, and he doesn't give up.
... Which has nothing much to do with what's on hand, only background mechanics for how he weighs things, and the respect he gives all of them. Because that much is true: he respects Tidus, and he respects Inigo, and he thinks their way at going at love is a bit sideways, but, uh. He can respect that too, for all he doesn't personally relate. )
I don't know Yuna? All I can know is what I know. Just to me, being able to tell her I love you and I also love them doesn't lessen either side of it, or mean you're giving up on her. She's no less important to you for finding you can love people here, too.
( h e l p
he's looking lost and a little grumpy because of it. if he had moveable ears in this form, they'd be angled back, flat against his skull. he doesn't see a problem with not being able to handle dating? hasn't he pointed out that he couldn't, in the casual sense? it's totally fine to not be in that space? he might personally never bed anyone if he were tied up emotionally elsewhere, but Inigo and Tidus are adults, they can get up to whatever they want? )
Wouldn't being able to handle dating mean being willing to accept that? In your heart and stuff? That you don't have to give her up to allow people in? It wasn't about being female or male or something else, since you already said you're not against guys or anything. It's where your heart's at.
( gender's a lot less of a concern for him, so he just. outright means physical sex. then, a pause. )
Do you think I don't like you for that? If I didn't like you, I wouldn't have thought about any of this, and Inigo wouldn't have either. It's not like we expect anything from you except what you're ready and willing to give.
( H E L P isn't this common logic for how friends work, where has it betrayed him so? he's exactly two seconds away from offering a formal apology, so. there's that! he had no idea gift giving was explosive territory!
anyway he's 100% sure Tidus gets he's saying "dude we're your friends and anything else you're giving anyone is your business and we're not demanding otherwise" )
cue: a mess, this is so dumb, i'm so sorry
But he's now trying to parse a few things.
One, Tidus having an issue with this coming from both of them.
Two, that issue has him worried over what Jingyi meant about him not being able to handle dating.
Three, if that's coming up right now is this perhaps not proposing but propositioning... for dating???
Four, he knows??? On some level??? He's dating Inigo??? Physically???
His head's filled with arrows pointing in disparate directions, and he's not less pale, but he does answer, because of course he does. )
I thought you didn't want my opinions. ( He doesn't make that biting, he's too pale to manage it, just outright confused. Which, well, Tidus had said something to that effect. But he's being asked, so he says: ) It was talking with you. I felt like you weren't in a place to allow that you can love people here and still love Yuna, too. That you can work on getting back to her and still, you know, be here with the people here fully. Heart and body, mind and soul, um.
( Oh Heavens he's rambling, and his tail's gone so still it's hit the floor with a dull thud. WHEN DID GIFTING TIME BECOME A LOVE CONNECTION other than the fact Tidus lives on nothing but borrowed time, and he does get that. He can't pretend he's in that situation. He can't pretend he's in Inigo's situation. There's nothing unique or different or complicated about his personal situation, outside of the worries anyone not seeing him back home would have, and the distress he's causing his best friend, and by proxy, his best friend's fathers, and his sect leader.
He doesn't have a lover he's worrying; he doesn't have siblings he's worrying; he doesn't have parents he's worrying. Lan Jingyi, here or gone, is missed, but not irreplaceable. Not a guardian, not saving an ending world, not helping end the world he grew up in, just doing work keeping normal people from being swallowed alive by nightmares.
And he does have inherent self worth. He's alive, he's capable, and he doesn't give up.
... Which has nothing much to do with what's on hand, only background mechanics for how he weighs things, and the respect he gives all of them. Because that much is true: he respects Tidus, and he respects Inigo, and he thinks their way at going at love is a bit sideways, but, uh. He can respect that too, for all he doesn't personally relate. )
I don't know Yuna? All I can know is what I know. Just to me, being able to tell her I love you and I also love them doesn't lessen either side of it, or mean you're giving up on her. She's no less important to you for finding you can love people here, too.
( h e l p
he's looking lost and a little grumpy because of it. if he had moveable ears in this form, they'd be angled back, flat against his skull. he doesn't see a problem with not being able to handle dating? hasn't he pointed out that he couldn't, in the casual sense? it's totally fine to not be in that space? he might personally never bed anyone if he were tied up emotionally elsewhere, but Inigo and Tidus are adults, they can get up to whatever they want? )
Wouldn't being able to handle dating mean being willing to accept that? In your heart and stuff? That you don't have to give her up to allow people in? It wasn't about being female or male or something else, since you already said you're not against guys or anything. It's where your heart's at.
( gender's a lot less of a concern for him, so he just. outright means physical sex. then, a pause. )
Do you think I don't like you for that? If I didn't like you, I wouldn't have thought about any of this, and Inigo wouldn't have either. It's not like we expect anything from you except what you're ready and willing to give.
( H E L P isn't this common logic for how friends work, where has it betrayed him so? he's exactly two seconds away from offering a formal apology, so. there's that! he had no idea gift giving was explosive territory!
anyway he's 100% sure Tidus gets he's saying "dude we're your friends and anything else you're giving anyone is your business and we're not demanding otherwise" )