( voidtrecker journal entries - imagination )

[blitzcheer]

( inspired to do after this )


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i always had my life figured out growing up. no matter what, i'd be a blitzball star. the best of the best. there wasn't anything else i wanted, and i got there. i was living my dream, and it was hard, i still wasn't where i wanted to be with it, but

i think a lot about it in times like these. what my life would have been like if Sin didn't come and sweep me away. if i stayed in that dream, training to be the best blitzer in zanarkand.

i can't see it. i guess because i know it'll never happen, but it's more than that. i wouldn't want to keep living that lie. i want to wake up.

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the train hasn't said anything yet about why people leave. i don't expect anything for a while, but in the meantime, people continue to come and go. i didn't go onto the platform today. i had enough to do in luggage, and to be honest, i didn't want to think about it. the people leaving. it should be a good thing, but it doesn't feel like it. knowing people aren't leaving by choice. there's no way they'd leave like that. not everyone.

is it cause the train can't sustain them or something? because of the tethering we go through. if it's as simple as that, then there's no reason why the train can't just explain it. unless there's something else to it. about why the train wants us in the first place.

i think the answer's in if the train tells us or not. (people who submitted feedback- me, roland, inigo, webmind, galo, curufin, taiki, s'reee?)





i miss you, yuna.

we got a chance i never thought we would.
i think about that everyday.
i think about you.
i wish you were still here

i love you

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working with senku on cooking the bear reminded me of how different we all are from each other. i never forgot, but there's a lot each of us have to give, ways we can help. he's got important work to do back on his world, him and gen, but i'm glad for now we have him. he's got some good ideas for helping the teams run better. i hope i can help out too

-ask piccolo for bigger water containers
-said teams should communicate better / see that orange team knows about the lunches
-help senku forage on missions



while i'm here, i can have an impact. that's what senku told me.
is that good enough? it's what i wanted to have before. i think- it's what i want to have now. leave something behind. even if it's just everyone else being better off.
i don't want to go. but-

i don't know how i'd live with the guilt if i stayed

'I could never forget.'

that's what you said too, yuna.
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should i tell inigo i'm

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Comments

[blitzcheer]

dad. how are you and mom doing?

thinking about the farplane as somewhere we really go and that isn't just a hotspot for pyreflies like the al bhed believe...

it's nice. but it wasn't always easy for me to believe. dead is dead no matter how you paint it. i didn't want to think about it. it felt like lying to myself.

but i like to think you and mom, auron, even yuna's dad as being together. what's yuna's family like? how do you get along? or maybe it's really like a deep, long sleep. just like the fayth wanted.

i want to get to know you better. you and mom.

[blitzcheer]

one day i won't wake up. it'll be my last.

should i prepare for it? how? i accept what's going to happen to me, but i

i want to know i made a left something i want to know i did good. i made my time worth it. that i helped.

medication - shields (weapons if found) - grenades -

[blitzcheer]

zanarkand. i'm sorry.

i wish there was a better way

[blitzcheer]

i know helping the people on the train can't change anything about zanarkand. no matter what i do, they're two different problems. helping the people here won't mean anything to the city.

is it wrong that i wish there was more? that there was some way i could make it better. give them something.

zanarkand was real. the people were real. the fayths' suffering was real.

what can i do?

[blitzcheer]

-train picks and chooses suggestions (adds l/b, pet food, haircare) not potions or medkits
-added second car for medbay
-put clocks to vote
-added braille when blind passengers showed up
-turned off the icps and translators when ministry message came in

-can only buy items you know
-train brings people back to life
-but train is trying to bring back people killed from the black clouds?
-everything costs too much