Yes. I.. I know. I need to go back and finish that.
[ That question is the only easy one to answer there. Because it's obvious. Because there's no other answer. He has to go back and get rid of Grima. That's the one thing he knows he does have to keep going for, even when it hurts. It's the same as in the past. But the rest..
.. maybe he can't answer it without properly explaining to Tidus this time, huh? And shouldn't he, in general? Is it fair to consider Tidus such a close friend, but not tell him everything?
Inigo swallows. ]
But Tidus, I.. I don't have a home to return to.
[ Not technically. Even going back to fight Grima wouldn't be going 'home'. It would just be returning to the fight. ]
I told you, right? That my friends and I were always fighting, and that we got the chance to go to the past and fix things up there. Defeat Grima there so our terrible future would never come to pass. But.. that's the thing. We made sure it would never come to pass. And in doing that, we erased it from existence. [ And that by itself wasn't much of a problem when the world was dead anyway, when there was basically almost no one left but them, but.. ] We knew that'd happen. Naga warned us. We could go to the past, but we'd never be able to go back to our future. And we wouldn't belong in the past either, since 'we' will be born there again. But it won't be us.
[ Not the kids who grew up in a destroyed world, unable to still function as normal people due to their individual versions of what's practically PTSD. ]
We don't have anywhere to go. We can't even stick together. We would be too recognizable, especially in a world where none of us are supposed to exist.
[ But something wants him to not be so negative. Maybe it's to keep Tidus from feeling too bad for him, or maybe it's Gibbs's presence, managing to influence the very atmosphere in the air, radiating hope. ]
I-- one time. One time, I had hope. When I was with Yuki, I thought.. I thought I'd try. That I'd finish things up back home, and then go to him. It's honestly so scary, since I have no idea how to just live like a normal person, but.. He was so important to me. I thought it'd give a point to it all. [ Inigo goes quiet afterwards, not having to tell how that ended up going for him, obviously. ]
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[ That question is the only easy one to answer there. Because it's obvious. Because there's no other answer. He has to go back and get rid of Grima. That's the one thing he knows he does have to keep going for, even when it hurts. It's the same as in the past. But the rest..
.. maybe he can't answer it without properly explaining to Tidus this time, huh? And shouldn't he, in general? Is it fair to consider Tidus such a close friend, but not tell him everything?
Inigo swallows. ]
But Tidus, I.. I don't have a home to return to.
[ Not technically. Even going back to fight Grima wouldn't be going 'home'. It would just be returning to the fight. ]
I told you, right? That my friends and I were always fighting, and that we got the chance to go to the past and fix things up there. Defeat Grima there so our terrible future would never come to pass. But.. that's the thing. We made sure it would never come to pass. And in doing that, we erased it from existence. [ And that by itself wasn't much of a problem when the world was dead anyway, when there was basically almost no one left but them, but.. ] We knew that'd happen. Naga warned us. We could go to the past, but we'd never be able to go back to our future. And we wouldn't belong in the past either, since 'we' will be born there again. But it won't be us.
[ Not the kids who grew up in a destroyed world, unable to still function as normal people due to their individual versions of what's practically PTSD. ]
We don't have anywhere to go. We can't even stick together. We would be too recognizable, especially in a world where none of us are supposed to exist.
[ But something wants him to not be so negative. Maybe it's to keep Tidus from feeling too bad for him, or maybe it's Gibbs's presence, managing to influence the very atmosphere in the air, radiating hope. ]
I-- one time. One time, I had hope. When I was with Yuki, I thought.. I thought I'd try. That I'd finish things up back home, and then go to him. It's honestly so scary, since I have no idea how to just live like a normal person, but.. He was so important to me. I thought it'd give a point to it all. [ Inigo goes quiet afterwards, not having to tell how that ended up going for him, obviously. ]