[ That almost gets him to laugh, but it comes out as another cough. It's over now? No. No, it's only just begun, hasn't it? He is a fool, and he has always played the fool even before. Always the one dreaming too big, the one who had no say in the matters of the real world. The one who made the wrong decisions, who chose the wrong things that led to doom, to despair, to death. Is this his punishment for being selfish? For choosing to accept time and time again a role of which he was not worthy -
- He shakes his head. His memory is growing muddled. These are not his words, these are not his fears. Except that they are, and the air is too thick for him to take calming breaths despite the attempts for distance. Aware of the two pairs of eyes staring at him for sense, but all he wants to do his hide, run, climb the highest mountain to take a breath. The empty hand, stained with grime and dirt, the one Halo held as she disappeared...he loathes how heavy it feels. He loathes every decision he's ever taken, risk and reward thrown out the window even as he preaches it to Tidus every now and again. Contact the ministry? What a joke.
What has he done? To them? To the people he now holds too dear to shy away from? ]
No. We'll bandage it, or nothing. I'll walk it off till camp.
[ Though Roland won't meet Tidus's gaze then, the second offer to heal him with his magic is denied, this time with more force. There is no other answer acceptable to him at the moment. None at all. He can't do it. He can't see that light come out of him, not when Inigo is watching and Roland can imagine everyone he's ever met on this train suffering the same fate, all because the train is destroyed out of being an anomaly the ministry could not understand, the train being chasing like a wild dog - ]
...We can't stand around and chat any longer. I assume Kaiba was able to escape and spread the news on the SCA line? [ He finds some semblance of calm, some steadying force coming from the pit of his stomach, unnatural as it is. It's what's needed. Necessary. They have no time. He has no time to wallow. He has to keep moving. For them. ] Is that how you two knew when to call? Did...Did you meet a world miner?
[ First thing's first. He's worried but if they're here unscathed, then that must mean they just ran here, right? They didn't fight. They're not hurt. It's going to be okay.
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- He shakes his head. His memory is growing muddled. These are not his words, these are not his fears. Except that they are, and the air is too thick for him to take calming breaths despite the attempts for distance. Aware of the two pairs of eyes staring at him for sense, but all he wants to do his hide, run, climb the highest mountain to take a breath. The empty hand, stained with grime and dirt, the one Halo held as she disappeared...he loathes how heavy it feels. He loathes every decision he's ever taken, risk and reward thrown out the window even as he preaches it to Tidus every now and again. Contact the ministry? What a joke.
What has he done? To them? To the people he now holds too dear to shy away from? ]
No. We'll bandage it, or nothing. I'll walk it off till camp.
[ Though Roland won't meet Tidus's gaze then, the second offer to heal him with his magic is denied, this time with more force. There is no other answer acceptable to him at the moment. None at all. He can't do it. He can't see that light come out of him, not when Inigo is watching and Roland can imagine everyone he's ever met on this train suffering the same fate, all because the train is destroyed out of being an anomaly the ministry could not understand, the train being chasing like a wild dog - ]
...We can't stand around and chat any longer. I assume Kaiba was able to escape and spread the news on the SCA line? [ He finds some semblance of calm, some steadying force coming from the pit of his stomach, unnatural as it is. It's what's needed. Necessary. They have no time. He has no time to wallow. He has to keep moving. For them. ] Is that how you two knew when to call? Did...Did you meet a world miner?
[ First thing's first. He's worried but if they're here unscathed, then that must mean they just ran here, right? They didn't fight. They're not hurt. It's going to be okay.
They're going to disappear.]