[ There's a conversation here that Tidus doesn't want to have. Questions he could ask about Roland himself--Were you a father?--that he could assume by what he says, more he could know about the man he's come to like, respect, more that he could share about himself.
But he can't. He won't. There's a knot in his throat all the way from that mess inside his gut, and it's too soon, it's not right. Cutlery clanks all around and the acoustics of morning conversation sound from the upper floor and below, and this isn't the time to be upset. Not the time to figure out his feelings or this sudden discomfort that's heavier in him than it should be.
So maybe he can be glad at some later point for the fork that enters his vision, the jesting motion Roland makes when Tidus does look up. A small escape that's hard to drag himself towards when he still looks back down, conflicted, but- ]
I'll order the stuff in a sec. [ He squeezes his hands into fists on either side of the plate, then lets them rest flat on the table. ] You put everything down?
[ He'd rather not address it now, but later. All of that there in that moment. Pretend it wasn't there. ]
nbd nbd just Father Feelings
But he can't. He won't. There's a knot in his throat all the way from that mess inside his gut, and it's too soon, it's not right. Cutlery clanks all around and the acoustics of morning conversation sound from the upper floor and below, and this isn't the time to be upset. Not the time to figure out his feelings or this sudden discomfort that's heavier in him than it should be.
So maybe he can be glad at some later point for the fork that enters his vision, the jesting motion Roland makes when Tidus does look up. A small escape that's hard to drag himself towards when he still looks back down, conflicted, but- ]
I'll order the stuff in a sec. [ He squeezes his hands into fists on either side of the plate, then lets them rest flat on the table. ] You put everything down?
[ He'd rather not address it now, but later. All of that there in that moment. Pretend it wasn't there. ]