[ There's a conversation here that Tidus doesn't want to have. Questions he could ask about Roland himself--Were you a father?--that he could assume by what he says, more he could know about the man he's come to like, respect, more that he could share about himself.
But he can't. He won't. There's a knot in his throat all the way from that mess inside his gut, and it's too soon, it's not right. Cutlery clanks all around and the acoustics of morning conversation sound from the upper floor and below, and this isn't the time to be upset. Not the time to figure out his feelings or this sudden discomfort that's heavier in him than it should be.
So maybe he can be glad at some later point for the fork that enters his vision, the jesting motion Roland makes when Tidus does look up. A small escape that's hard to drag himself towards when he still looks back down, conflicted, but- ]
I'll order the stuff in a sec. [ He squeezes his hands into fists on either side of the plate, then lets them rest flat on the table. ] You put everything down?
[ He'd rather not address it now, but later. All of that there in that moment. Pretend it wasn't there. ]
Let me double check. [ Roland doesn't move quite as snappy, but he does eventually unfold his arms and reach for the forgotten notebook. He clicks his pen and he writes in his usual fast scrawl, eyes sometimes darting back to Tidus to see if he's uncoiled. ] Pays to be sure. Even if somebody's got half a thousand points to spend in a day.
[ He throws him another smile, but it's more endearing than it is joking. Roland reads through it, makes sure every item he remembers is listed and then some, before handing it back to Tidus with a gentle slide on the table. ]
Yeah. [ Tidus stands, taking the notebook and resting it to the side of his tray to pick up at the same time. A look finally taken in Roland's direction, a better, if emptier smile flashed his way. ]
I'll use the terminal downstairs if it's free.
[ It's a 'see you later', whether it's sooner or later they do. The space will be good for him to get out of his own stupid head. But alas, poor destroyed muffin left to be chucked out and not even eaten after all that rip and tearing... ]
[ Roland stands as well, and takes Tidus's tray in his free hand so he can hold the notebook better. He doesn't mind it. He doesn't mind whatever it is Tidus has to feel because it's part of the process - to breathe, take it all in, reject it, then come back to it all over again. So he smiles like he understands, and maybe he does, as he moves out of the chair and angles himself to the dishwasher. ]
I got this. Maybe I just didn't do chores right last month. Who knows. Heh. Do what you have to do. I'll get my routine going before we hit the platform. [ And he means that in more ways than one. ]
See you around. Happy shopping. [ He nods and that's Tidus's exit, clean and as he needs it. Roland will be cleaning up the plates, maybe nabbing a bite of that torn up muffin. In the back of his mind, he hopes old wounds will no longer reopen for either of them. ]
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blitzcheer) wrote2020-04-28 11:07 am
nbd nbd just Father Feelings
But he can't. He won't. There's a knot in his throat all the way from that mess inside his gut, and it's too soon, it's not right. Cutlery clanks all around and the acoustics of morning conversation sound from the upper floor and below, and this isn't the time to be upset. Not the time to figure out his feelings or this sudden discomfort that's heavier in him than it should be.
So maybe he can be glad at some later point for the fork that enters his vision, the jesting motion Roland makes when Tidus does look up. A small escape that's hard to drag himself towards when he still looks back down, conflicted, but- ]
I'll order the stuff in a sec. [ He squeezes his hands into fists on either side of the plate, then lets them rest flat on the table. ] You put everything down?
[ He'd rather not address it now, but later. All of that there in that moment. Pretend it wasn't there. ]
BIG OOF 8(
[ He throws him another smile, but it's more endearing than it is joking. Roland reads through it, makes sure every item he remembers is listed and then some, before handing it back to Tidus with a gentle slide on the table. ]
Go crazy.
wow are we wrapping a thread?? scandalous
I'll use the terminal downstairs if it's free.
[ It's a 'see you later', whether it's sooner or later they do. The space will be good for him to get out of his own stupid head. But alas, poor destroyed muffin left to be chucked out and not even eaten after all that rip and tearing... ]
how dare we close clean, who ARE WE ANYMORE
I got this. Maybe I just didn't do chores right last month. Who knows. Heh. Do what you have to do. I'll get my routine going before we hit the platform. [ And he means that in more ways than one. ]
See you around. Happy shopping. [ He nods and that's Tidus's exit, clean and as he needs it. Roland will be cleaning up the plates, maybe nabbing a bite of that torn up muffin. In the back of his mind, he hopes old wounds will no longer reopen for either of them. ]